Week 3 in HR

November 26th - December 2nd (even of the Full Moon)

What a week last week was. Each day, tho, brought me more stability. Day by day things improved. In a way I need to thank Blythe, and apologize to her.

Maybe I can do that this week.

December 2nd

At breakfast... OMG I am so hungry!! Before breakfast, I popped over to the real world to check if I passed and will graduate. HUZZAH! YES!! That makes my morning! Off to breakfast to sate my growling stomach. Andrew came in with Zatafax. He offered for me to return to Montreal if I want to. OF COURSE I DO! ... but I might have to deal with trouble there and... kill. 

NOPE! It was a very flat and firm NO. 

Clearly no one heard me nor listened the entire time leading up to today........

Maybe if I have to defend myself or protect others, ok. But not purposely shoved into a situation where I am obliged to that. NO! What part of I AM A HEALER did you miss? I am not compromising myself again.

The issue got dropped and I got to brood with my breakfast. I took a few deep breaths and let it go.

After breakfast we went to Blythe's for a visit. Darsh arrived. Who? Oh... Riley and Blythe's "handler". Well that was surreal and like right out of a movie. "There have been developments. An operation is set up." he wants our help with it. 

Well fuck....

Andrew knew. It wasn't just a maybe... it was a known plan. When invited to Montreal, this is NOT what I thot. Manipulated again!

NO!

I politely excuse myself and walk out.

Outside I breathe in the crisp air. Yes, I want to be a healer. Yes, I want to help them. I do NOT want to fight and kill. I want to be their HEALER! How many times to I have to say it?!?!