DEED... done...

Monday, November 6th

After spending time to memorize the faces of the two targets and meticulously make poison, I was up very early for my "New Job" and bringing my usual backpack. I have my newly provisioned uniform, a pocket notebook and fountain pen, oh... and the bottle of poison.

I am trying very hard to not think too hard about the task I am about to do. 

5:30am and I arrive on time at the Second Cup. I ignored Levi when I pass him on my way there. I shyly introduced myself to my new boss there and get directed into the training for day one, newbie training handling coffee & espresso/cappuccino.

I just watch for the "targets"... everything else is up to Levi, then Blythe, while I disappear after.

7am
Matrello arrives on time like clockwork, orders distractedly as he answers a call on his cell. I prepped his coffee (duly poisoned) and his ordered banana bread, hand them over and continues about my newbie barista work.Martello walks off still talking on the phone. He takes the East Exit past Levi and so is Levi's responsibility now.

Center & Ground! I managed to fuck up the next two orders of coffee and apologize as only the timid newbie I am can. "Sorry! I'm new... day one here. I am really sorry." I hand over the correct coffee.

8am... almost
Nordan showed up a bit early. Not the end of the world. He ordered his coffee and likewise answered a convenient call. I prepped his coffee (duly poisoned as before) and handed it over. He stopped, stared... I think he recognized me! How does he know me? Does he? I pretended not to notice and continued with the next few orders in the now morning rush. My heart was practically racing. EEEK!!

BATHROOM BREAK!

I strip off the uniform and change into plain clothing, grab my backpack, pop out the side stairs to Mansfield street, and take the metro home. I grab my journalling supplies and Brighid and head through to the Sanctuary. I desperately needed the feeling of SAFETY! I dropped everything onto my futon and walked off into the woods to just SCREAM for a bit and pray this was the right thing. I will then just sit on a log to compose? Fail... center and ground over and over.

Levi checks in on me to see if I am ok. That is kind of him. If I had a crush on him... those feelings are smashed to bits by all this and there is definitely no future there... I think. I cannot think about a relationship... I can see why war folks fuck before or after. Nope, I am not ok. Yes, give me lots of space for a while... so I can scream some more.

Once calm, I snuggle with Brighid in the Zen Garden.

Once I felt more stable, I seek out Levi.... I need to know the results of what I just did.

Martello... dead

Nordan... dead but... the job was almost botched and the Nephandi are likely alerted.

SHIT!!!

Deep breath... time to clear the apartment of anything and everything we can swiftly move through to the Sanctuary. Emptied the car too, assuming it will just have to be abandoned. I took the license plate and scratched what ID stuff I could find and reach. Anything to make it harder to id the owner. It is just a scrappy car.

The next hours are spent compartmentalizing... and having tea in the little teahouse... meditating... more tea... snuggling Brighid...

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Somewhere after the chaos of what happened with Riley and MurderBot... and MurderBot wants a cat...