Fucking Full Moon............. I forgot it was the full moon.
Brighid suggested I draw a card for the day, maybe a few stones... practice some magic. It's Sunday and I got nothing to do today... and the apartment hunting is not going so well.
Mom and Dad are NOT helpful!
"Stay home," Mom says "You have everything you need here, can save money, safe training spaces for Aikido, Do, and magic."
I am 25 and living in my parents' basement. At this point I will never have a relationship or any respect just for the connotations of being a guy in his parent's basement.
Dad: “Son, there’s nothing wrong with the odd big in the kitchen. My first yurt had roaches. But vampires are a complete dealbreaker. They’re IMPOSSIBLE to exterminate completely”.
Thank's Dad..... ugh...Dad: “I know. There’re the worst. Going around with the backs of their hands pasted to their foreheads saying silly dramatic things about being the Night...”
NOT Helpful Dad!
Mom: "Well, not on Moving Day, they aren't."
*FACEPALM*
Clearly she has picked up a little of his humor as she said that with a perfectly straight face.
I should have absolutely never said a word about moving out. Just moved in secret and told them after the fact. I should seek out a Vampiric Gothic Wannabe roommate just to spite them.
I take that back. No... I don't want that kind of roomie.
As for Brighid... currently called the FUCKING FAMILIAR today.... she is great at pointing out the very very obvious thing I should do when all else fails. Clearly SHE knew it was the Full Moon. So, I do a Tarot reading, because, hell if I know what to do for the day and how to find the right apartment. I should have looked at the calendar first and then told her NO. Full Moon readings almost always freak me out.
Three of stones for a light draw. Creativity. Listen to your inner voice, meditate, focus your energy in the direction you wish to go..... That was not so bad. Tho, unhelpful. Like DUH... this IS what I have been doing and thus far I have not found anything, nor a suitable roommate. And ya, my gut also agreed with Brighid, so out come the cards. Here we go......
So I settle down and do a proper reading. I cast circle, call the quarters, and lay out the cards as intuition bids me to. My intuition is boring. I used the traditions Celtic Cross.
Querent (Me): 5 Stones - Endurance
Inner strength and Endurance to protect myself. Emotional resilience. I suppose that... yes... that is me.
Crossing me: 6 Stones - Exploitation
I am being crossed by exploitation, being overused. By who? My parents? No way..... Work? School?
Beneath me / Supporting me / Root of the Matter: Mirrors
I am supported by the Spirit World and my guides. Or... the root of the matter is.... the world of magic and Spirits is what is the root of my problem with finding an apartment?!
Behind me / Past: The Pole Star
Universal Law, spiritual knowledge.... everything I have been learning is basically my past. Thanks. That is a great big DUH!
Crowning me: 2 of Bows - Decisions
The things that may happen and the things occupying my mind are... decisions... Thanks... Captain Obvious. The Gate is open and waiting for positive action. Great.... and that positive action is???
Before me / Possible Future: The Journey
*facepalm* Let go of old thinking, old ways, things that have outlived their usefulness and step into a new journey. Do not be afraid to let go and move forward. Under normal circumstances, I would embrace that idea. But whenever someone said 'Do not be afraid' then there usually something to be afraid of.
Hopes & Fears: 6 of Arrows - Transition
New possibilities, travel, moving towards a new purpose. I can chalk that up to my hopes... but at the same time a little of my fears.
Family & Friends: 8 of Arrows - Struggle
Failure and struggle, but there is still hope. Courage is needed to survive. That... that does not bode well for my friends and family. Will it play a role in my decision making?
Dreams & Ideals / Major Influences on Outcome: Ace of Bows - Spark of Life
Creative spark of life, human creativity, mastering our gifts and harnessing the elements & Spirit. I know I have a lot yet to learn. But.... I am not exactly a "creative" person....
The Outcome: World Tree
Bridge between human and Spirit. End of the journey. Gift of Wisdom. Thanks...... thanks.
Overall.... that was NOT Helpful. Full Moon or not... This reading didn't tell me anything new or helpful. I needed advice on how to find an apartment and roommate.
I guess I will just go back to reading up on the No Self and Negation of Self and how these are not Nihilism in the understanding that there is no I or Ego in the Madyamaka of Nagarjuna. One pile of nonsense to yet another pile of nonsense. Thank the gods I have work. Work makes sense.
Well, that was overall not so bad. Maybe I have gotten over whatever has my divination borked to working only on the full moons and being scary as shit on full moons.
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